In the still of the night...

I am sitting down at my desk in my computer room. Everyone is so spread out. School starts for everyone tomorrow. I have been taking classes for the past week. I need to buy a binder for my seminar class... the only reason I just typed that is so that I'll remember tomorrow. I remember things better if I write them out.

I am listening to the song "How Still My Love" by Stevie Nicks. "Standing! in the doorway.. watching out to sea, calling out to me... You go your way! Go on! Get out! ......... But you won't forget me, ooh no, you don't forget me. Oh oh no, my lonely one."

I have listened to her since I was 14 years old. And what her songs meant to me then, do not mean the same things they mean to me now.

But school starts tomorrow for everyone. It's so weird. Everyone is so far apart. There was always this feeling of connectivity within me. It's strange, because that feeling has changed. Everyone is so far apart. I keep saying that because it's the only thing that I feel when I think of my friends. We are all so far apart.

I finished my chemistry homework. I am proud. I am exerting so much effort on this class and not enough on my biology class. This will come back to get me I know it. Oh well.

I am writing to you in the still of the night. When I should be asleep. No one is really reading this so it's fine that my thoughts all are jumbled up. Pieces here and pieces there.

I miss seeing the people that I liked everyday. I miss seeing the people that I didn't like everyday. There was that source of connectivity. I am reading Facebook statuses of those who are returning to High School. Most, if not all, saying how they are dreading it. But in reality, while High School is hell, it is something that brings a group of people together for five days a week. It's an excuse for the youth in society to come together.

Now that it is over for me, I can't help but look back at all the times I bitched about what a bad place it was... now I want to go back.

But that chapter is closed now and I am forced to move on. I'm sure I will feel the same way about college when it is over.

Who knows.

But for now it's just me, in the still of the night. With Ms. Stevie Nicks.

and I have to go to bed.

Here I say,

Goodnight cyber world

and thank you for listening once again.