At orientation I was really excited; there was so much energy around me. I think everyone could feel that everyone around them shared the same feelings. However, I don't think I am quite ready to say goodbye to the past 4 years. And while it may not be a "goodbye," it certainly is a conclusion of some sort. Everyone has already dispersed to their given school. And I am back here at home. Why did I choose it this way? I guess part of me still is very anxious and I can't get rid of that. But part of me feels that my work here is not done yet. I'm not done with this little spec of Maryland: Timonium. I am not done with it. I just have this feeling in my stomach that says I'm not done. I don't know why, I just have a feeling.
I have to go to bed and put an end to this rambling.
I haven't written on this thing in a long time. But I think that I am going to start at it again. Hello again, Heresay. Hello again.
1 comment:
hey, I think I know what you're feeling, at least in the sense that I'm picturing myself doing the same thing, same being staying home for college, and just imagining what it must feel like. Maybe being a little jealous that people get to get the FRICK out of here, but you just said you werent done with timonium, and they aren't either, really.
plus it takes more courage to stay home than it is to go away because everyone around you is leaving; it's like one big influx of peer pressure to live in a dorm. As usual you're sticking out from the crowd, and doin' your own thang. I'm lovin it.
talk soon?
Hannah
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